Am I trying to look good to someone?

            I saw a short story on subway posts. Once upon a time, a king goes to a Buddhist temple to visit a famous master of a Buddhist priest. The master see the king coming but still do what he want to do- eating a bake potato. King sees his rude attitude and says nothing, but when he sees the snivels on his nose, he can’t keep himself and say, “Please clean your nose.” The master only glanced at the king, and say, “Hum! To look good to others?”
            I think trying to look good to others is not a bad thing. In fact, to give other people a good impression is a good way living in a society. Sometimes I think I need to care more about others’ thinking.
            I am trying to look good to others some time. When I dressed up with beautiful clothes, I knew I wanted to look good to others. When I was afraid about speaking in front of others, I knew I cared about others.
            Trying to look good to others is not a bad thing but too much care about other people’s thinking is a bad thing. If I don’t care about others, I think I can do better presentation and get a good score in Marketing Class. I need more experiences and more confidences. I hope I can do a good presentation.

A purpose

           If you have a purpose, you can fail at something but never wandering.
           There are many benefits to have a purpose in life. First of all, a purpose can be a motivator of life. For example, when I wanted to go to a college, I studied hard. At that time, I was full of energy.
           Another benefit of a purpose is that a purpose makes me know the direction. I think that a person’s life like a ship on the ocean. The ship is too small but the ocean is too big. If I don’t have a direction I will lose on the ocean. If I don’ have a purpose I will lose myself.
           I wanted to have a meaningful purpose until yesterday. After the exam, I was thinking about the first question on the exam that Why did I chose my major-Business Management. In fact, there were no important reason but I can’t answer on that way. At last, I write that I want to have a company and that’s why I choose Business Management. Anyway, on my way home, I realized that not every thing in life had a deep meaning. Life is change. A purpose maybe just end as a purpose. What I do now, and what I want now is the right answer of a life.

Christmas Coming

            I’m not a romantist. In fact, I’m a girl who doesn’t care Christmas, Valentine day, whatever. Unfortunately, I have a very romantic mum. Last November 11, because I had no present for her, she told me directly, “I’m very disappointed. I’m worry about your poor sensitivity. ” I cannot imagine if I forget about the Christmas what will happen next day. So, I want to prepare some gifts for all my family. Trust me. I didn’t do it through my life. Maybe my mum was right, I am a little …… strange.

Last Exam

            Today I have the last exam of this semester.
            Last week I had three exams, and this week I had three too. Through Monday and Tuesday I left last one- English Writing. I don’t worry because writing is not an easy lesson. It sounds strange, but it is true. I cannot improve my writing skill in a day. The only thing I can do is do my best in the exam.

English Blog

            Keep writing in English blog almost killing me. First of all, it was hard to write something in English. I had little experience writing in English. I couldn’t remember the words I needed. I had to find them in the dictionary. Sometimes I knew the word but I didn’t know how to organize them. I had to find many examples in the dictionary too.
            Another reason why it was hard to write is I didn’t know what to write. Before mid term, I wrote some thing about my family or something about my opinion. But after that, I didn’t know what to write. It was very big problem because I can not find the answer in the dictionary.
            Last one reason why it was hard to write in English blog almost killing me. Creativity! Where could I find creativity? I wasn’t a funny girl. I didn’t think I could find creativity in my life. The only way I knew was pictures. I found pictures in web site and put them in every post. That was the whole thing I did.
            Today is the last day of my English Writing class. Even though writing in English blog was hard, but it was helpful. Studying English is a hard work. It needs listening more, reading more and writing more, right? I think I do writing more in this term.

As a freshman

            I am a freshman. I have 2 weeks to say I am a freshman.
            I said I was looking for myself when introducing myself at the beginning of the class but during this semester I gave up. I think “who I am” is not important. I can be a good daughter to my parents and a good sister to my younger sister. That’s the importance. Do my best to something I cared about. I think family is the most important in my life. Then, maybe books.
            One year passed so quickly. It’s shameful that I waste my time and money. Maybe I got something during the time. But I just cannot satisfy myself.
            Another year comes quickly. I want to change. “Progress is a good word, but the motivator is change, and change has its enemy.” I hope I will not be the enemy of change.

Mirror

            I often wondered if the girl inside the mirror is me or not. When in the TV or in the movie especially in the horror movie, there are a special world in a mirror. Some times I think maybe that’s true.
            When I stood in front of a mirror, when I saw my face especially my eyes, I cannot say that I know the girl in front of me. She is a stranger. She looked at me very, how I can explain that, just like seeing nothing. She didn’t care about me or care about anything.
            Some people said mirror doesn’t lie. If the mirror tells me the truth, the girl in the mirror always tells me that I don’t care about any thing, even myself.

First Day Read Napoleon Written by Max Gallo

            He knows what he wants since he was a 10 years old boy.
            When he is 10 years old, he leaves home to military school. He is born in Corsica, but at that time Corsica is defeated by France. Unfortunately the school which he goes to is a France noble military school. Most of the classmates and teachers there look down upon him and hate him. He is alone, absolutely alone. However, he is strong. He never submits to any person or any thing, even his destiny. He is a fire. He lost his country but the love for his country was burning inside him.
            He studies hard from that time, and he does the best to overcome every classmates. He is a very proud man. He prefers dying rather than lose. He believes himself and become stronger and stronger.
            When he is 16 years old, he achieves the first dream. That’s the result of his effort and his strong will. He loses his father and become a man who has to accept responsibility of his family. He has the ability and qualification. Of course, he is willing to take the family duty.